i read an article about this girl who had bullimia and it reminded me of my past. the worrying thing is i miss my past now. everytime i remember the feeling of starvation, i miss it. i liked feeling empty. I liked the way i knew i had nothing in my stomach. I got excited and it still excites me. Im not to sure why, but i want to feel that all again. im not even sad right now, which worries me even more. im laughing.